| Location | North Shields |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 12/2006 |
| Date of Death | 12/2006 |
| Visitors | 2,275 since 14/01/2008 |
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i found out i was pregnant in the august 2006 it was huge shock to me and my partner but with in
days i was happy and looking forward to becoming a mummy, the pregnancy was veyr hard i was in and
out of hospital with urin infections but i knew it would all be worth it as i went for my 20 week
scan and found out i was having a baby girl the love grew even more for my unborn baby i was always
stroking my bump talking to her and protecting her, on the 19th of december i started getting awful
pains around my stomach i didnt think anything of it because i was only 5 months and 2 weeks gone,
as i was taken in an ambulance to hospital and the docter examined me and told me i was in labour i
felt my heart breaking, i willed my baby girl to hold on jsut a coupl of weeks till the docter could
give me steroids to help her grow quicker as each day passed i willed her to go on a little longer i
talked to her everyday i spent xmas day in hospital, then came the morning of the 29th of decemebr
when my abby girl couldn't hold on any longer and asi pushed her into this cruel cruel world i
willed her to live but for only one hour could she hold on till she slipped away she took her first
and last breath in my arms i have never in my life felt pain like it my parents and fiance tried to
comfort me but nothing in this world would take away this pain i felt nothing couldd even numb the
pain i ached to hold my baby girl to hear her cry, hear her breath yet nothing could bring her back.
my heart burnt out that day the light in heart went out.
Hi Sweet little girl hope you are playing nicely in heaven and looking down on your mammy she misses you and loves you so very much, I can share her pain but unfortunately i cant heal it. Sending you both lots and lots of love
Hiya angel
hi baby gurl i hope your ok and playing safely and nicely with the other angels, mummy is thinking about you every minute of every day still and still the pain has not got even a little easier but as per usual no one seems to understand that and im just expected to be ok and have moved on and people keep interfearing with how i want to remember you ect it is really getting beyond annoying now, i know there is a handful of people who do understand and are going through the same thing right now and i feel for them i really do i just really wish u were with me right now wish i culd hold you cuddle you and give u all the love in the world i really wish i could be with you yet as much as i have tried to get to you ive not managed yet but dont worry sweetheart il keep tring till i get there i lvoe you so much and mummy will be wih you soon angel to take care of you. sending you millions of kisses and cuddles and dont worry il be there soon baby girl, i love you so so much my heart is physically hurting and feels like it is physically breaking fromt he pain and as much as i wish sumone could numb that pain i dont aswell its really hard to describe. love you lots and lots like jelly tots baby girl i really do all your memories are flooding around my head at the moment, i love u angel sleep tight il chat with you soon lots and lots of love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxlovexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxyouxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxforeverxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi sweetheart
Hope you have had a good day and played nicely with all the baby angels in gods garden, mummy has you on her mind alot at the minute feeling very very lost without you and is about to loose the most important person in her life soon not sure ifilbe bale to cope with it but hey im nicole im meant to take everything in my stride i dont want to bore you with my issues lol mummy loves you loads sweetheart sleep tight and play safe catch the kisses mummy sends to you and il light a candle for you to take to bed wih you mummy needs to accept looks like you will be her only baby i love you alicia baby gurl xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey baby gurl
hiya sweetheart mummy is missing you so so much right now everyday is a constant struggle i hope your playing nicely up there with all the other angels, i know you will be asleep right now just mummy hasnt been able to speak with you for a cupe of weeks cause my laptop was in for repair, well mummy hasn been up to much to be honest thinking of you all day everyday aching to hold you and kiss you i really really need you just feels everyone seems to think i should be over you growing your wings like i should have moved on but not one of them has given birth to there baby and had to say good bye to them on the same day not one of them and it realy really annoys me cause they have no idea what it feels like and how much it hurts but i would never wish this to happen to anyone cause the pain is immense and i think im just rambling on lol you know what mummy is like i love you so so much alicia my daughter my sweetheart my angel my everything no one will ever take that away from me and i promise angel i will be with you one day soon for each day that passes although it takes me a day further away from the last day i saw u it also brings me a day closer to me and you being re-united. play safe and sleep tight baby gurl mummy loves you and my tears that fall are falling for you its mummy sending lots and lots of kisses and cuddles up to you. take care sweetheart and il talk with you soon love you forever and always mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
morning angel
Hey there angel i hope your well mummy is thinking about you so so much i hope your playing nicely with the other angel babies up there mummies tears that fall is my way of showing her love for you i only have words and teard to express it to you but one day soon i will be with youand able to cuddle and kiss you to show my love for you, no one will ever take that away from us i love you angel and i will speak with you soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey baby gurl
You will be asleep right now i know just came on for a chat really, even tho it was fathers day it has been really ahrd knowing you should be here and we should have been enjoying the day as a family instead i was trying to make the day special for daddy like you would have done. Alicia baby i really need you right now and i really need you to watch over daddy he deserves so much more that me and more than i can give him and im just starting to realise it we both love you will all our hearts and nothing will ever change that i hope your sleeping well i dont want to keep you to long i know you will be wanting to play, please know although mummies tears fall thick and fast for you i dont want you being upset over it, its jsut mummies heart hurting that is all, i will be with you again soon angel till then play safe i love you angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Just checking on my only lil baby X
hi my angel hope ur ok out there chilling thanx for my present and card really loved them and hey ur hand writing similar to ya mas so thats one thing great that Ive seen.
Maybe ur not here in person but ur are with me all the time and u know that u anoy me by sitting on my keyboard when am producing a tune lol takecare will see u in a few years time , dont want to set dates but ask god he might let u know. I love u loads now av got a tear in my eye so Im gona turn the music off on here and go but will keep intouch with you , ur my only one and will always be my only one , Right gota go before i go mental nowing that all iwant to do is hold u here and enjoy my day with u XX love u for ever XX tazzy XX Daddy
hey angel
Mammy is sat crying right now for you i gave daddy his fathers day card and present from you, even tho it is his day its hit me quite hard i miss you so so much angel i really thought i would have it together by now i am really trying o tb strong for you babey i reall am but i just dnt know if i can hold this together much longer i need you back angel i dont think anyone realises how much i need you in my life, im trying to hide the tears from daddy as its fathers day and i dont want to ruin his day!! your daddy is an amazing person angel and i know he would have made the perfect daddy to you, he is a caring loving person and i know he misses you although he doesn't show it i know he is being strong for me one day you will meet him againa nd see what i mean angel i know your watching over us and i know you can see him but there is so much more to him i promise your his baby gurl and he loves you and i just know when you are re-united you will see what an amazinf person and an amazing daddy he is. Watch over him angel he deserves the world and i just cant give it to him right now but i know you will keep him on the right path.I have wished him happy fathers day from you and i will speak with you soon angel my tears fall for you thick and fast still but know its because i love you so so much and cant even begin to descirbe how much i miss you angel. play safely baby gurl xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I love alicia
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hiya angel
Hi there sweetheart how has your day been? mummy has been thinking about you all day today, thinking what it would be like if you were still around you would be 17 months and 11 days old and everyone of them days is hurting mummy like hell not beng able to see you hold you care for you, i loved you from the moment i found out you were growing in my belly angel and i love your more and more as each day goes on, i woudl give anything to have you with me and daddy i dont think anyone actually understands how much i want you and need you back but hey everyone thinks life has to go on yeh well mine doesnt not without you in it, it hurts that no one seems to understand how much this is hurting me angel i love you so so so much words cant express how much i really hope your playing safely in gods garden of clouds and have lots of friends mammy will be with you soonas much as each day goes by it takes me a day further away from the day i last saw you it also brings me a day closer to being with you again i suppose thats what i have to hold onto i love you so so much angel and nothing and no one will ever change that play safe and sleep tight mummy will speak with you soon love you always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hiya baby gurl
hi angel sorry mammy hanst spoke to you in a while mummy is having a hard time but nothing new there i spose, how is life in the fluffy garden i hope your playing nicely with all the other angel babies, mummies tears are still falling thick and fast for you angel, i keep telling others im ok with things but deep down im not the pain is still as raw as ever i still live the nightmare of the day you grew your wings. You will hear i speak about you on a regular basis as i dont want people to ever forget you. I love you so so much angel and will never stop loving you. Sleep tight angel and il chat with you soon. love you loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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