| Location | North Shields |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 12/2006 |
| Date of Death | 12/2006 |
| Visitors | 2,275 since 14/01/2008 |
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i found out i was pregnant in the august 2006 it was huge shock to me and my partner but with in
days i was happy and looking forward to becoming a mummy, the pregnancy was veyr hard i was in and
out of hospital with urin infections but i knew it would all be worth it as i went for my 20 week
scan and found out i was having a baby girl the love grew even more for my unborn baby i was always
stroking my bump talking to her and protecting her, on the 19th of december i started getting awful
pains around my stomach i didnt think anything of it because i was only 5 months and 2 weeks gone,
as i was taken in an ambulance to hospital and the docter examined me and told me i was in labour i
felt my heart breaking, i willed my baby girl to hold on jsut a coupl of weeks till the docter could
give me steroids to help her grow quicker as each day passed i willed her to go on a little longer i
talked to her everyday i spent xmas day in hospital, then came the morning of the 29th of decemebr
when my abby girl couldn't hold on any longer and asi pushed her into this cruel cruel world i
willed her to live but for only one hour could she hold on till she slipped away she took her first
and last breath in my arms i have never in my life felt pain like it my parents and fiance tried to
comfort me but nothing in this world would take away this pain i felt nothing couldd even numb the
pain i ached to hold my baby girl to hear her cry, hear her breath yet nothing could bring her back.
my heart burnt out that day the light in heart went out.
hey sweety
Hello angel, mummy hasnt been to talk to you in quite a while, but only for the reason the pain of loosing you still hasnt even began to subside yet people told me it would get better in time if thats the case why am still witing. I know this pain will never subside, infact i dont want it to angel, your my first daughter and my princess. I cant seem to grasp the fact that your were taking away from me and your daddy yet all these child murderers were given children, were is the fairness in that. Im sorry babey gurl i shouldnt be ranting at you mummy is jus still really hurting but i have no were to show this pain cause poeple seem to think that i shuld have moved on by now and all that crap. So what have you been up to/ playing safely i hope and having fun up there. mummy never stops thinking about you angel and you never ever will i gorget or let anyone ever forget you. the tears that still fall for you when im alone behind closed doors float up to you and plant a new kiss on your cheek. I know you see me crying angel but its my way of sending kisses up to you. anyway play nicely angel mummy will try and write more often when the pain isnt burning me as much!! Love you lods angel and play safe xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Happy Birthday Sweetheart
Well your 2 already sweetheart i dont know were the time has gone, i hope you have a lovely day up in gods garden with all your angel friends i know you will enjoy your party mummy will be sending up the balloons to you, nice pretty pink ones. Sending lots and lots of floaty angel kisses to you have a fun day nd dont worry about mummy and daddy just because were splitting up nothing will ever change how much we love you. Now go on go play with your angel friends and have fun!!! Love you lots and lots like jelly tots babey girl mummy will light a candle for you to blow out aswell. Love you forever and always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi sweetheart
Sorry mummy hasnt been to talk to you in a little while, its nearly your seconde anniversary and not one person realises how bad im feeling right now, im lower than ever at the minute but i dont want to ruin anyones xmas so im keeping quiet about it all!! babey i miss you so so so so much angel and i really need and want so badly to be with you and i will be with you soon angel mummy will make sure of that!!! there is not one day i dont think about you and everyday my heart breaks more and more every day i cant work out what i have done to deserve this and then to add to the pain and hurt i still havent been givin the chance to prove how much of a good mummy i could be, every month comes and goes and still no bfp why babey girl as god why he hates me so much that all he wants me to have is unhappiness!! I love you angel so so much with all my heart and i will never ever forget you i will be sending your balloons up on your anniversary for you to have you party and mummy will ry and get to you that day at some point!! love you lots and lots sweetheart il be back soon for a chat you daddy is shouting for me cause he is in the bath but i guess you can see that!!! lots of love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hey babey girl
Hello sweetheart i hope your still playing nicely and safely with all your angel friends, mummy is having a ahrd time at the moment but cant tell anyone as they all think im strong and coping,shows what people know i just cant grasp why this has happend to us, why you were taken away from me when i wanted you so much and love you with all my heart!! I would give my life to be with you sweetheart but i guess you know that already!! well its nearly your 2nd birthday mummy will be sending up balloons for you, i know you will b having a tea party with all your friends, il send lots of pink baloons for you angel!! Your my little princess,my shining star my whole world and everyday that passes brings a day closer to being together!!! I love you alicia my little sweetheart mummy will be with you soon lots of love and hugs mmmy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hello Sweetheart
Hello angel mummy has missed talking to you, mummy has been very poory for a few weeks but i guess you would have saw that, i hope you are still having fun up in gods garden, mummy broke down yesterday the pain of not having you here with mummy and daddy is getting to much all over again. I will be with you again one day very soon sweetheart if i have my way i love you with all my heart angel and nobody will change that, i will keep your memory alive, oh yeh i hope you like the memory box i got for you its big pink and sparkly just how you would want it and i keep all your things in it that i look at when i need to and i write letters to you and put them i there i hope you have been gettin them all. anyway i dont want to keep you from your play and fun. One more thing i hope you got the balloons i sent up to you from scotland that was a very hard day for mummy cause i so badly wanted to fly up to see you.Well go and have fun sweetheart and mummy will be back soon to chat to you love you lots and lots angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Princess
Hello darling.
Wanted to send you lots of love and hugs. You a beautifull little angel with a very special mammy who means teh world and more to me. She is a lot stronger than she thinks and between me and you i dont think she knows what a big impact she has had on my life, I dont know what i would do with out her.
Hope you are playing nicely up in heaven lots of kisses sweetheart
aunty ash
Hello sweetheart
hope your playing safely and nicely up in gods garden with ben and ray, mummy misses you so so much but she may have some good new for you soon fingers crossed!! keep smiling and im sending u loads of kisses and cuddles il be sending you a balloon and mesage up shortly!!! Sleep tight baby gurl love you millions forver and always!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello angel
hey babey girl i hope your playing safely up in the clouds with all the other angels, mummy has been thinking about you alot infact not a day goes by that you arent in my thoughts!! I know you watch over me and daddy and mummy wants you to know we love you so so much and will never forget you no matter others want . Your grandma took your scan photo's and hat and gloves out of my flat just after you passed away and she thinks i didnt know it was her but i saw them all in her bag one night and now she is trying o say she hasnt got them,wether she has thrown them out or is just lying i guess i will never know but she has hurt me alot by it and i now feel as if im missing all your things, i wanted to put a special box together with the things i bought for you but thanx to her im missing your beautiful pictures but dont you worry about it angel i will get them all renewed i dont care how much it costs im going to get the scan pics from the hospital and get your birth certifacate renewed i love you so so much angel and no one will ever make me forget you i will talk about you and remember and love you till the day i join you sweetheart and thats a promise. i love you so so much baby girl sleep tight i will be with you soon lots of love and hugs and kisses mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello sweetheart
Hello baby girl i know mammy has come on late i have not been well all day, i hope you have had a good day playing with ben and ray up in gods garden no geting up to, to much mischief tho!! Your in my mind 24/7 especially at the minute just keep trying to imagine life with you here and how much better life would have been, i miss you so so much baby girl and i would do anything to have you back in my arms, what ever happens between mummy and daddy know we will both always love you with all of our hearts, you mean the world to us we always wanted you in our lifes and will never ever forget you. I dont want to go on tou much cause i know you will be tired after your long day of playing around, i love you with all my heart alicia baby and my heart breaks everyday i wake up with out you and i know what should have been! anyway honey you get to bed its past your bed time love you lots angel sleep tight love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello sweetheart
Hello sweetie i hope you have had a good day paying with ben and ray in the garden i hope you were a good girl, mummies heart is hurting so much for you angel but i will b with you soon. sleep tight my angel and i will speak with you soon lots of love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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